Thursday, September 9, 2010

One of those Mommy Moments

Every night Miriam picks out three books for me to read to her at bedtime. Tonight she picked this book; my favorite children's book given to me by my best friend of my whole life Devyn

The book is written from a mom to her little girl when she was a child. She tells her daughter "One day I counted your fingers and kissed each one" and "One day the first snowflakes fell and I watched them melt on your baby skin." Then she tells her daughter all the things she will experience "Someday." When Miriam picked this book, I said

"Oh I love this book! This is about us Miri!" She had questions or commentary on each page

"Mommy! Look I'm a big girl there! I don't have training wheels!" "Mommy, what song am I singing there?"

The last page says "Someday your own hair will glow silver in the sun and when that day comes love, you will remember me." and there is a picture of an old woman with gray hair sitting on the porch and on the table is a framed picture of the mom counting and kissing her baby daughters fingers. Miri asked,

"Mommy, why do you have white hair?"

"Oh sweetie, that is you when you are a grandma."

"Where are you?"

"When you are a grandma, I will be in Heaven."

I look down at her and her little bottom lip is quivering, her eyes are big and tearing and she has that little look on her face when she is trying to be brave and not cry.

"What's wrong sweetie?!"

"Mommy, this book makes me feel kinda sad."

"How come?"

"Because I will miss you so much. But you can come and visit me from heaven, right?

"Oh sweetie, I always get to be with you."

"Mommy can you cuddle me?"

8 comments:

Jill said...

That is so sweet!

The Johnson Family said...

Oh Steph, you made me cry so much. Because Miri is just precious, what a mommy moment indeed! And because you are my very best friend from beyond this life, Brother Robbins was surely right. I love you Steph and miss you so much!

Cyndi said...

I have the chills. what a sweetheart!

*A* said...

I'm so happy you gave that book to me for my baby shower gift. It really is such a sweet book. Well, we need to catch up!!!!! We just got done doing IVF....again. We had to cancel the whole thing 1/2 way through because 2 of my follicles grew way too fast too soon. So basically we could have skipped the stimulation drugs and hope for the two to fertilize etc or cancel the whole thing and start a fresh one in the future. With our luck, we agreed to cancel everything. HUGE bummer! I guess the BC I was taking wasn't strong enough and that's why this happend. ANNOYING!!!! Anyway, we will try again in DEC or maybe even FEB. I'm sooooooo happy I have two girls, but I just don't feel like we are done. On the other hand, I feel like I'm getting too old for this kind of stress (almost 33...YIKES!) I just don't know how much more I can handle. Well, I miss you and sorry for writing a book on your blog!!!!
Andra
www.ilovemps.blogspot.com

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Jenessa said...

What a sweet little girl.

Krishna said...

You documented such a sweet conversation on this blog that your little one will enjoy years later!