One of those Mommy Moments

Every night Miriam picks out three books for me to read to her at bedtime. Tonight she picked this book; my favorite children's book given to me by my best friend of my whole life Devyn

The book is written from a mom to her little girl when she was a child. She tells her daughter "One day I counted your fingers and kissed each one" and "One day the first snowflakes fell and I watched them melt on your baby skin." Then she tells her daughter all the things she will experience "Someday." When Miriam picked this book, I said

"Oh I love this book! This is about us Miri!" She had questions or commentary on each page

"Mommy! Look I'm a big girl there! I don't have training wheels!" "Mommy, what song am I singing there?"

The last page says "Someday your own hair will glow silver in the sun and when that day comes love, you will remember me." and there is a picture of an old woman with gray hair sitting on the porch and on the table is a framed picture of the mom counting and kissing her baby daughters fingers. Miri asked,

"Mommy, why do you have white hair?"

"Oh sweetie, that is you when you are a grandma."

"Where are you?"

"When you are a grandma, I will be in Heaven."

I look down at her and her little bottom lip is quivering, her eyes are big and tearing and she has that little look on her face when she is trying to be brave and not cry.

"What's wrong sweetie?!"

"Mommy, this book makes me feel kinda sad."

"How come?"

"Because I will miss you so much. But you can come and visit me from heaven, right?

"Oh sweetie, I always get to be with you."

"Mommy can you cuddle me?"