A Sad Day

I'm sad today. My little Lia has been having a little bit of mucousy blood in her poops for the past week and a half. They did a bunch of tests and ruled out infection. The doctor told me that it is most likely an allergy to cows milk, which seems weird since she is 100% breast milk fed. Apparently the cows milk proteins can come through my breast milk from my diet. For the past 4 days I've completely eliminated dairy from my diet (which is actually harder than it seems.) It hasn't helped, actually she's been having even more blood in her poops. I checked in with her pediatrician today. He told me that he still thinks it's a food allergy... could be soy, wheat, corn or a number of other things. He said that it is pretty much impossible to breast feed a baby with such sensitive allergies and told me that I will need to stop breastfeeding her and start giving her a hypo-allergenic formula instead. He said that the number one priority is to stop the bleeding in her intestines caused by irritation from a food allergy, of course I agree. It's disappointing because I have worked SO HARD to be able to breast feed my triplets and finally it has been working perfectly for all three. We have a system going and It makes me so sad to have to stop breastfeeding my Lia. There is nothing sweeter than a nursing baby. Lia is the one who has liked it the best too. She's grunts with pleasure while she nurses then looks up at me and smiles while milk spills out of the sides of her mouth. I'm sure I'll feel better tomorrow. Today I'm just sad.